A Piece of Me – Coming Out

I’m going to share a story of my life to some that would like to know me a little bit better. The story that I would like to share is about my coming out to my family about my lesbianism. This is a long story, but I’m going to try and shorten it some. Well first of all my lesbianism started, when I was in high school ‘ninth grade’. There was this girl named ‘Rachel Moore’ she was so beautiful. There is really only one way of describing Rachel she was the “Total Package” as some would say. Oh before I forget, when I came out to my family I was about 16 years old, and I’m know 22 years old so I’m trying to take you back 6 years ago.

I started to notice myself gazing at Rachel at times, but I was not sure if this was the sign. Then I came to the point that I started to day dream about Rachel, at this point I was starting to realize that I was developing some kind of attraction toward Rachel. The day dreams where about me kissing another girl or holding another girls hand simple things like that. When I was 17 years old, I kissed my first girl and when I did I was astounded, this kiss was something I did not want to forget. By the time I was 18 years old I knew within myself I was a lesbian, because I had strong feelings toward woman. It took me 3 years to come out to my family and, when I did it was not a pretty picture. When I told my parents that I was a lesbian, my dad hit the roof. This is what my dad said to me, “YOU ARE NOT MY DAUGHTER, AND I WILL DISOWN YOU!!!” Then he gets up from his seat walks over to me and slaps me in the face.

My mom was okay with the idea, and that made my dad even angrier. My dad turned my brother against me and they moved to Kentucky. To this day my dad doesn’t want anything to do with me nor does my brother. I live with my mom in Hollywood California, and I love it here. When this first started, I would not eat or sleep, because I knew that I was the reason that my parents devoiced. Then one day my mom told me that it was not my fault. My mom told me that they were not getting along way before I come out, and she told me not to beat myself up. It took sometime, but I got over the pain and know I’m living life to the fullest. I love all my friends and the family that still talks to me.  xoxoxox

Kendra McKnight